don't know...

i really don't know what to feel....
sometimes, i feel like everything he says to me are lies...
his sweet tongue makes me feel so loved but it kills me when i will think that it is a lie...
it's not because it really is a lie but because i just don't want to believe in anything he says...
it's because i know that i would find it more difficult to move on every time he pulls me back...
but when he tells me all his worries and the burden he feels inside (family, school, etc.),
i can't help but empathize...
i mean....
i care for him so much...
it seems like everything he's done is forgotten and forgiven when he's like that....
it seems that i feel that he's feeling that he's carrying the world at his back...
his world of chaos that's full of dilemmas....
his feeling of the burdens inside his heart that lets him think things that affects his life..
how he can't think right...
all his problems that he confides to me...
of course, i'm his bestfriend....
i don't know how to help him...
when he has problems, i tend to forget how i feel for him...(when i'm angry, etc.)
because i know that he needs a friend...
sometimes i feel that i'm not a good friend...
because i can't even help by any means...
but what can i do?
the problem is within himself...
he's the one who could solve his worries...
i always tell him that...
actually, he gives good advices to people who goes to him for help...
but with his problems?
he doesn't know how to solve them...
or maybe he does...
he just doesn't trust his self...
oh bother....
i don't know what to do...
oh well...
it seems that thoughts are crowding up in my mind...
i guess i have to stop typing...
oh well...
i love him...but i know i shouldn't....and i can't..
but i made a promise to him...
which i would like to fulfill...
that's why i'm still here ...
by his side through thick and thin....
even if i feel hurt or whatever....
our promise of friendship will always stay...